So my cousin has invited me to her 18th. She is doing the whole ‘hitting up the clubs’ in town business that I haven’t done yet.
Now we arent THAT close, like we see each other easter, Christmas, new years… And yes we are good friends on those occasions but that’s about it.
Now the other 22 people invited are from her OTHER side of the family, none of whom I really know (everyone else in my family is either under 18 or over 30), and I am always a bit awkward when I see them because I dont really know them. Like, not even their names.
So based on the people going it does appear to be a ‘family’ thing.
She said on the event “Please let me know if you can make it (partners included) as I will make a door list.”
Like, as in male partners? Like your ACTUAL boyfriend?
Don’t have one of those HAHA
So i’m assuming because there is a list we will all meet there? So I go by myself to this club at like 10pm in town to join people I dont know, who dont really know me (Oh wait, some do, but theyre the ones who say “Oh I still remember you when you were just a baby!” So I clearly dont remember them.)
She DID invite me though. So she would appreciate my presence.
DID I MENTION THAT THE NEXT DAY I HAVE TO BE IN TOWN AGAIN AT 10.30AM TO SING FOR A GIG, AND I WILL HAVE TO DRIVE MYSELF
So not too much drinking. I will be very tired though.
This is my first ‘town’ experience, I dont know what I’m doing ok!
I know youre all dying to discover the outcome of my last post (hahahahaha not) but last night was nice and while the teachers did drink, most of the students did not and I made the right choice by driving.
URGH when the teacher I am in love with drinks he is so fun to be around haha
And makes me sad that he is married
Also I didnt drive him home damn. One day. He knows I know where he lives. So the possibility is open.
Also thanks to http://harooyenne.tumblr.com/ for your advice
Anyway tonight I will be partying hard at my friends 18th yay
I would go into more detail about things but ive already cracked open the drinks and its putting me in an “i dont want to write anymore” mood
Hopefully I can meet a beautiful guy tonight who is the man of my dreams
And not that bloody Dale guy I met at some other party who really wanted my number but never seems to want to use it although I really like him
If you actually read this
I am very impressed
I’m going out for a music dinner tonight with all the senior girls of which there are about 8 plus the teachers
Dilemma 1: I want to buy thank you gifts for two of the teachers, one of them is the one I am pretty deeply in love with, well ok firstly WHAT DO I GET but mainly, is tonight the night to give? Because there are two other teachers who I wont be gifting so I feel bad giving in front of them. Also I was hoping for a more personal setting where he would read my deeply moving card straight away and hug me. There is only one other day I will see him before Graduation, but its a rehearsal day and it will be full on and there will be stress everywhere and I don’t know if I will be able to even achieve the personal setting desired. But it kind of has to be then or now. What if other people give gifts tonight though!?
Dilemma 2: Dinner is in town, do I drive?
Pros of driving:
- I can stay on my own schedule as long as I want and not worry about when mum can pick me up (she would pick me up whenever but it takes about half an hour from when I call her for her to arrive, and I am usually pretty bad at judging this, so I usually end up leaving before I would really like to)
- There is a high possibility that I will be able to drive the teacher I love home (Don’t worry everyone is VERY chill about the ‘rules’. Well, HE is anyway.) which would be so incredibly exciting for me.
Cons of driving:
- I cant drink. Will others be drinking though? I don’t know. Most ARE 18, the teachers will probably. What if people want to go out after? I feel like others might.
- I have to try and judge when I want to leave half an hour in advance and I always stuff that up.
I KNOWW alcohol should not be a deciding factor but it only is because I have been 18 for nearly three months and I havent done anything remotely ‘adult’ other than actually BYO drinks at house parties. I just want to experience a little of this adulthood and new found freedom that exists for over 18’s in town, you know? I’m not an out of control alcoholic.
I think…. I am going to drive, and give gifts on monday, the rehearsal day.
WHY do I have to turn everything into a problem, this really shouldnt have been that hard.
The flight that they are sending my suitcase home on was delayed
HOW MUCH MORE DOES VIRGIN AIRLINES WANT TO FUCK ME AROUND
THEY ALREADY SENT MY BAG TO THE WRONG DESTINATION I CANT HANDLE THIS MUCH LONGER
MY ENTIRE LIFE IS IN THAT BAG
So I came home from Melbourne today and went to collect my luggage…
BUT IT NEVER CAME
So I am crying my eyes out in the middle of the terminal because MY SUITCASE WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE IN IT WAS GONE
We went to baggage services, they tried to call some people but nothing.
So I went… to school because I had a rehearsal, and cried more there.
And on the way home
And said they found my bag IN FUCKING QUEENSLAND
OPPOSITE END OF AUSTRALIA TO ADELAIDE
HOW THE FUCK DID THAT HAPPEN
Anyway they are personally delivering it to me tomorrow but I NEEDED IT TODAY AND TOMORROW MORNING fucking hell I cant even brush my teeth
And I have to be an outfit repeater tomorrow, being with the same people as I was today. I HATE doing that.
So I cried until they found it because I seriously thought someone had stolen it or its lost on the way to China or something
And then I cried when they did find it because I was so relieved.
Of all people