istanbulwalker asked: Omg I hope everything will be okay. You need a hug ʕづ•ᴥ•ʔづ
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Ok so update on the whole teacher loving thing.
Remember how I said we had a bit of an argument?
So I awoke to a text from my friend (who is music captain, ha thats another tragic tale of why i wasnt chosen for the role) saying that teacher wanted to see the year 12 musicians at recess.
Recess came and as it turned out the meeting was just him saying that he wasn’t happy with some people attitudes and that he has been teaching music since before we were born (when he said this i quickly reevaluated the fact that we cant ever be together, and yep it still remains this way) and how he knows best and all this shit and I’m sorry but what the fuck literally the only time I have annoyed you in my entire life and you make a meeting to complain about it (amongst other things). He has never been this drastic before. Anyway it became clear that he was directing a lot of it at me and yesterday’s little argument. I wanted to cry and die.
Whatever I left. Half an hour later I had a singing lesson, I walked there a way that I knew I wouldn’t see him (I never walk this way because my intentions usually ARE to see him) and waited for the lesson before mine to end. I see at shadow coming towards the door. Yep you guessed it’s him.
Fucking great. Now its going to be us alone.
I looked at him and looked away. He said “Alright dont go getting all emotional”. I smiled because I cant help myself around him and we ended up having a nice civilized conversation about how I should be going about my solo performance and came to a mutual agreement. He thinks that I’m stressed because of year 12 and all. When in fact it’s actually me going crazy because I’m pathetically in love with him. But I’ll let him think that. Mainly for my sanity. But he had calmed down and was actually being lovely to me and was smiling and put his arm around me and ALTHOUGH I HATE HIM he makes me love him. I did appologise but our conversation still had some tension…. and i know that things arent completely ok… This is all partly my fault, if I only acted calm yesterday none of this would have happened. But. I’m not a very calm person. And nor is he really.
I still feel like he hates me though. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING, two days ago I was happier than ever because life was fabulous and he was one of my favourite people on the earth and he totally loved me and kept telling me how fabulous i was…and now he makes me want to cry. He doesnt think that I can get my piano piece up to an A standard in 4 weeks WHEN I SERIOUSLY CAN WHY DOESNT HE HAVE FAITH IN ME.
You know when you have an argument with like one of your best friends and you constantly feel sick about it because youre at home and cant do anything about it?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM/ME
Hes so fucking moody omg
So now its the weekend and i cant do anything about it. but then its musical monday, where i have music almost all day and will be with him and will have to be nothing but fabulous.
How does one be nice without appearing too desperate.
So thats that. Ive probably made him out to seem horrible but normally he is so fantastic, thats why i fell in love with him in the first place. What a crazy way to end what i thought would be a nice week.
See I have this teacher who is so much like rdj, he acts the same way, he says similar things… even some of the facial expressions he does are exactly the same. So I am completely in love with him to the point where I am obsessed with him an a very unhealthy and stalkerish way.. I know literally everything about him and make sure that I am with him at almost every second of the day. And I am, we even went to the other side of the world together for two weeks on a school trip,
(also he hugged me again the other day. We were coming back from a music competition and it was like 9pm and we were stopped in the middle of no where and it was dark and he was saying how fantastic i am (because i am a leader and all. But i try so fucking hard to impress him because i’m pathetic) and he wrapped his strong arms around me aw it was beautiful. He initiated the hug but i manipulated him so it would happen omg I NEED TO STOP MANIPULATING THINGS)
You know how rdj can be a bit of a dick sometimes but thats half the reason you love him? Thats how this guy is.
But the problem is that I always seem to find ways to look incompetent and foolish in front of him. Today was one of those days and im hating life because i just want it to be tomorrow so i can talk to him and be friendly again
we had to perform our solo performances and I played piano so terribly, but im usually good and later it turned into an argument about time limits and quality of performance…
We actually had an argument. I was actually yelling at him and him at me. Usually we are besties NO i cant handle him when he is like this.
Guys my obsession with this man is out of control. I am more obsessed with him than RDJ and i have a whole fucking internet blog about rdj. You know how retarded I am? It has gotten to the point where i literally walk past his house (yes, i know where he lives. it wasnt entirely my fault that i found this out though) as part of my exercise routine so that i can ‘accidentally’ run into him. This hasnt happened yet but it inevitably will.
Maybe I was running there. Maybe I’m out of breath. Maybe he invites me inside for some water. Maybe…
See how crazy I am? I am more scheming than Claudius from Hamlet.
So, HI EVERYONE, this is me, a freak show stalker who probably needs some mental assistance and needs to fucking get over my ‘one true love’ who is 44 and already married because it is damaging me because all i ever think about is him and how i can get closer to him and i am behind in everything because i put so much off to do things involving him, when really, i just need to get over myself.
Someone tell me that im ok
but im really not so dont never mind
Robert Downey Jr talks to Chris Stark of the Scott Mills show on Radio 1
RDJ and Shane Black - photoshoot for the Los Angeles Times,
Actually this movie though
If he ever said that to Pepper…
the person I chose for my persuasive piece on who I would give a hero award to was Robert Downey Jr. (◡‿◡✿)
(for anyone curious NAPLAN is a set national wide tests that we do in Australia and New Zealand in the years 3,5,7 and 9)
OMG YES I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR YOU!
naplan was the worst haha